saya tak suka ‘kalau’!

lately ramai sgt org ckp psl kalau dulu cmni kalau dulu cmtu…tibe2 mcm jd sdeh…tp alhamdulillah, i came across this hadith yg bess n since it came from mulut baginda Rasulullah saw sendiri, rase tenang n gumbira bile bace hadith ni:

Abu Huraira reported Allah’s Messenger (may peace be upon him) as saying: A strong believer is better and is more lovable to Allah than a weak believer, and there is good in everyone, (but) cherish that which gives you benefit (in the Hereafter) and seek help from Allah and do not lose heart, and if anything (in the form of trouble) comes to you, don’t say: If I had not done that, it would not have happened so and so, but say: Allah did that what He had ordained to do and your” if” opens the (gate) for the Satan. [Muslim Hadith 6441]

basically ape yg teaks dpt from ayat akhir tu is that perkataan ‘kalau’ ni syaitan yg bisik kat kt kan? jahatnye dorg nih…pastu buat kt rase sedih xpasal2..n sbb tu Rasulullah saw pesan kat kt yg jgn disebut dh kalu2 ni..malah kt patot redha ngn setiap ape yg Allah dh tetapkan utk kt n yakin btol2 yg tu yg terbaik utk kt (Allah knows that which we do not)..huu~ ok, so thats what i’ll do from now on insyaAllah…yosh! xx

yg masih berusahe,
teaks

Boleh ke tamo raya?

lagi bbrp hari je nak raya dah ni…tapi knp teaks xrase happy? aci tak kalo xrase happy time raya? mcm xbaik je kan…raya is supposed to be a time of celebration for muslims sbb dh berjaya menahan nafsu sepanjang bln ramadhan kan? but teaks mmg xrase happy~

nak kate 1st time raya kat uk, ni dh 3rd time..but this time around rumah ni kosong…xpnah raye rumah kosong…uhuk2..pastu maybe this time around, teaks dh busy with clinical attachments so rase sgt penat…nk masak2 utk raye pon xtau lg dan ke tak…plus ade deadline ssc (thesis) next week…pastu nk kejar 10 mlm terakhir…tp dh lost count dh mlm ni genap ke ganjil…

ape nk jadi ngn teaks ni? patotnye stp kali ramadhan lbh baik..tp thn ni rase cpt sgt ramadhan ni…tau2 je nk hbs dh…patotnye by the end tu iman kt rase kuat…spy bile ramadhan habis, kt bersedia nk face dunia yg kembali dpenuhi syaitan2 blk…tp dgn keadaan skrg ni, rsnye kalo ramadhan hbs mcm tu je, teaks xcukup kuat lagi nih…aiyooo…sbb tu jugak kot teaks xrase happy nk raye…i’m not ready to leave ramadhan!! *sigh*

pape pon, bknnye blh stop time kan..so theres no point in me not being happy with raya n just duduk2 bersedih…guess i need to find the fighting spirit in me to make me work EXTRA hard during these few days yg tinggal nih…yosh! may Allah guide me n the people i love to become good muslims insyaAllah~

yg tamo raya

*teaks*

making the most out of my cuti =)

i’m home at last!!! its been 1 year since the last time balik msia…actually dh 3 weeks kat sini n tinggal 1 week je lagi nk balik..mesti sumorg kate, aik? 4 mggu je cuti? mmg stp kali org tny jwb 4 mggu cuti, sumorg membulatkan mata mcm xpcaye…haha…but to me, the 4 weeks yg univ bagi ni mgkn nmpk sket but teaks akan gunakan sebaiknye! cewah..

gitu gini, the first 3 weeks have gone by..the 1st week was totally family week since my sis cuti h1n1 (the virus that managed to scare sumorg d msia tp kat uk sumorg relek…hehe)…we went to langkawi (tempat yg bnyk memori silam- since i spent 2 years kat mrsm lgkw time muda2 dulo…hehe)…dah dkt 4 years xpegi sana n a lot has changed over there..i mean a lot! ktorg pegi island hopping, pegi bird paradise (feed rabbits, ostrich, donkeys, peacocks, n diff kinds of birds)…bessss sgttt!! i enjoyed that the most since i’m a big fan of a.n.i.m.a.l.s~ yep2! then pegi naik cable car; gayat sket la…ni ade tips utk org2 yg takot nek cable car: dont sit on the side menghadap arah mane the cable car is going…also jangan gerak2 sgt dlm cable car, dok diam2 sudaa…haha..

pastu we spent one whole day utk shopping (barang mama la of cos..huhu)…mama doesnt like outdoor stuff like we do, dia suke shopping!! hehe..but i dont…yeke? huhu…nways, kat lgkw bnyk mende2 mama je so satu hari tu ktorg teman mama shopping jela…tolong pilih pinggan mangkuk utk rumah…(menambah koleksi yg suda bnyk…isk2..huhu)..i guess all mothers are like that…mama kate dh kawin nnt awk tau la..oops!

2nd week tu baru dpt duduk rumah kjap then blk kampung jmp nenek! yeay! alhamdulillah nenek is healthy at the moment (apart from her chronic illnesses which she’s on medication for)…at least she can walkabout and eat well..n talk (A LOT! huhu)…i always enjoy talking to nenek sbb no one can tell a story as detailed and dramatic as she can…trust me, she’s the best! also, its the easiest way to get updates about the family without having to go and see everyone…(but obvously kena dengar yg baik2 je..its not good for a muslim to hear bad things about ppl unless ade niat nk mengubah org tu kan?)

at the end of mggu kedua ni, ade predeparture IMAM (Islamic Medical Association Malaysia) UK Students Chapter..teaks jadi faci utk prog ni…dapat la berkenalan dgn adik2 yg baru nk fly insyaAllah september ni..comel2 je sumorg n sgt innocent..i’d imagine i looked like that before fly hr tu..(prasan! huhu)..anyways, we did a lot of medical based activities utk dorg disamping cerita2 psl pengalaman kat uk..suke sbb program ni sgt interactive so i didnt feel like a fasi sgt?! ala kulli hal, i pray that adik2 ni dpt fly tahun ni n may Allah guide them to become a good muslim medical student insyaAllah =)

as for the 3rd week, barula teaks dpt berjumpa kwn2 n ckgu2..(mintak maap eh lmbt contact sumorg..hehe…bnyk kne marah mggu ni…huu) awal mggu teaks pegi kolej mara banting…jmp ckgu2 yg drindui…huhu…hari esoknye teaks dpt pegi konvo pertama kawan kat UM…besnye die dh grad! huhu..then later in the week pegi taiping attend wedding senior sheffield…meriah sungguh! alang2 kat taiping sempat pegi jmp ckgu homeroom time teaks kat lgkw dulu…kebetulan die mengajar kat mrsm taiping skrg so dpt jmp die n anak2 die yg chomel!…i miss them already =)…then a friend of mine from kulim dtg n bwk jln2 taiping..pegi jmp adik die kat mrsm taiping then pegi beli hadiah wedding…huhu..had a nice time alhamdulillah~ thank you =)

skrg dh masuk 4th week…my final week..awal mggu ni teaks akan attend program islamic insyaAllah..then reunion with langkawians (lamenye xjmp!)..then family gathering before blk insyaAllah…padat tak? aiyoooo…tamo balik!!! but life goes on and nak taknak we have to go thru what has been destined for us..sbb at the end of the day, we plan, Allah too plans, and yet His plans are the best!

ala kulli hal, i’ve had a wonderful time back in malaysia…n i’ll surely miss everyone in malaysia when i go back next week..!! S.A.N.G.A.T!! but balik kali ni has given me a new fighting spirit which will hopefully last until next time teaks blk lagi insyaAllah…huhu

yg pasrah kena blk uk,

*teaks*

Hospital ohoho

Its been two weeks now since teaks berulang alik ke hospital…wah cepatnye masa berlalu~ last week ade 4 mggu lagi nk balik..skrg 2 mggu je lagik! yeay! people say kalau xcountdown mesti xrase lame…mm btol gak tuh~ huhu…nways, i’m writing to share some stories abt my first 2 weeks as a clinical medical student…wah sounds so posh! huhuhu..here goes:

1st week

i was placed in the geriatric ward (nk sebut pon susah)..huhu..wic is actually ward utk warga tua…tatau nape asyik dpt ward warga tua je…i dun mind sgt actually suke je ckp ngn org tua…its just that i dont have a loud voice n most of them cant hear me well if i dont shout my lungs out…so kdg2 nk amek medical history dorg penat dok menjerit je…its hard to shout all the time sbb xbiase…plus, mase nk ckp ngn depa mesti nk sound as sopan as possible…tapi kalo dok menjerit je spjg mase, rase mcm kurang sopan plak..tapi xpe, skrg teaks dh blaja cmne nk ckp ngn org tua..bess dorg sgt chumil~=)

i got to do a cannular insertion..cannular ni mende yg cocok kat tgn org kalo nk masuk air or ubat thru salur darah kite..so kirenye cocok org n masuk tube dlm tu..huhu..menarik2 sbb blaja cmne nk buat 5 mins b4 pi buat kat makcik tu…hehe…i think the real challenge with older people is that they have very loose skin..so bile try rase2 vein (salur darah) tu mcm dh jmp…bile masuk jarum..oops lari plak sbb kulit die loose n goyang2…huhu..but i guess the art is to tarik kulit depa n pegang kuat2..sbb teaks xsuke cube cocok2 org tu bnyk kali…biar skali trus jadi..with practice makes perfect insyaAllah=)

nways, rsnye 1st week bnyk kena borak ngn makcik2 n pakcik2 kat ward tu utk dptkan medical history depa pastu present kat doctor..pastu baru doctor pi tgk die…huhu…so ok la…i guess its good practice for me la kan..hehe

2nd week

this week dpt pegi EMU plak..wic is a transitional ward utk patient yg masuk dari emergency ward n dari luar..so kirenye ward pertama patient dtg utk doctor siasat agak2 depa ni sakit ape..then bile dh agak2 tau, they are sent to specific wards according to sakit ape agak2 depa ade..bess ward ni bcos lagi bnyk mende nk buat..sbb everyday ade new patients masuk n teaks akan kena pegi jmp die dulu b4 doctor, utk amek history (Lagi!)..huhu..then present kat doctor..tapi kat ward ni xramai org tua sgt so xyah jerit2 dah (alhamdulillah mggu ni kurang penat huhu)…tp rindu plak kat makcik pakcik kat ward lama tuh..hmm

bile org baru masuk, trus kena pi amek darah depa…so i took a lot of bloods this week…last week ade buat 2-3…but this week bnyk sket..yeay! huhu…i’m not sure y i like taking blood so much…truth is, mase dok collect barang2 nk guna utk cocok tu rase bdebar sgt…tp bile dh sampai dkt patient rase bes sket…pastu bile tgk darah rase seronok…haha (just realised how weird that sounds…) huhu..

note: bes la jgk keje sini dgn omputih sume n kat hsopital tu mmg susah sgt nk jmp org islam…but sometimes rase kering…rase mcm hati xterisi dgn ingatan kpd Allah…so bile balik rumah rase bess sbb blh bace quran…n tgk2 video kat you-tube..mcm mane ye nk integrate islam dlm kerja kite? i know that stp ibadah kalo niat krn Allah dpt phala (insyaAllah) , etc…stakat ni mcm bace bismillah b4 cocok org ke, sume tu ade la buat…tapi mcm xcukup…salu teaks rase kalo b4 pegi tu pagi2 teaks doa n niat yg teaks kne buat yg terbaik n jadi cth kat non muslims..tapi kdg2 tu xmampu..n kdg2 terfikir kalau teaks meninggal kat spital tu, kire mati syahid x? ke mati sia2 je? huu..tp rsnye tu sume Allah je yg tau kan..so kt cume leh usaha, niat krn Allah sume kije kt, n doa bnyk2..nways, insyaAllah teaks akan blaja sket2 how to integrate islam dlm kije..insyaAllah kat msia nnt senang sket la kan~huu~

“Ketahuilah kehidupan dunia itu hanyalah permainan + senda gurau, perhiasan dan saling berbangga diantara kamu, serta berlomba dlm kekayaan dan keturunan, spt hujan yg tanamannya mengagumkan para petani; kemudian tanaman itu menjadi kering dan kuning kemudian menjadi hancur. Dan di akhirat (nanti) ada azab keras dan ampunan dari Allah serta redhaNya. Dan kehidupan dunia tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan palsu”. (Al Hadid: 20)

ala kulli hal, i had an intensive tiring productive and fun 2 week experience kat sane…hopefully 2 mggu lagi ni berlalu dgn cepat sbb nk blk msia! wee~

yg ceria gumbira,

*teaks*

its hard to say goodbye

i found my dead pet hamster, tamtam this morning…mula2 tgk mcm xpecaye…tgk bnyk kali…ya Allah sedihnye rase mcm nk biar je die kat citu….rase cm nk tgk je die lagi tiap2 hari..tapi die dh keras…die xleh main ngn teaks lagi…

cerita die mula 2 days ago..pagi tu mcm biase teaks bangun n main2 ngn die…ckp gud moning sume..bg die breakfast…pastu teaks kena kelua ade bbq…pastu lewat ptg tu blk dh penat sgt trus tido..then later that night, syafiah kecik dtg rumah nk main ngn tamtam katenye…pastu die tgk2 kat cage die jerit “kak teaks, tamtam’s gone..!” aiyo…tkejot teaks..bia btol…mebe die tido dlm rumah die kot…kdg2 die dok diam2 je dlm tu…pastu teaks tgk jaring kat atas sngkr tamtam tu mcm terbukak sikit…dh xsedap ati dh…pastu bukak cage die cari2 xde pon…waa…time tu ade 3 org lagi tgh lepak bilik teaks (aktiviti yg akan dirindui time wiken sbb dorg nk blk dh)…trus je..”korg, jom operasi cari tamtam!”…angkat la katil, almari sume suluh2 sket xjmp pon…aish…rase bsalah sgt kat tamtam…cari pny cari malam tu xjmp jugak…pastu pk, since tamtam ni notty, mebe die tgh sorok kot kat mane2..tggu jela pagi esok…

so the next day tu, buat la spring cleaning bilik…alang2 tu vacuum bilik sume…kemas2 ape yg patot…xjmp jugak…sdey nye…tula tamtam ni degil..org tamo bg klua nk klua jugak..but agaknye die pon xsuke kne kurung dlm cage tu kan..selama ni kena kurung, xdpt nk explore..tapi teaks bagi makan cukup, bagi mainan, main2 ngn die tiap hari lagi…tapi die nak jugak kelua…teaks kurung die pon for his own good…tp dpt je peluang die nk lari kelua…pastu tatau dh jadi ape kat die..tp teaks dh pk, akan redha kalo tamtam dh xde pon…sbb die xpnah klua so mesti xtau nk survive cmne..

pastu mlm tadi mcm xleh tdo…mimpi tamtam…huhu…pastu bangun je pagi tadi trus teringat kat blkg almari baju lupa nk cari…instinct agaknye, trus jmpa…mula2 xnak tgk…xsampai hati..tp nk kena uruskan mayat die…terpaksa la pegang dgn linangan air mata skali…uhuk2..xpela salah teaks jugak xjage btol2…

pastu dlm sedih2 tu teaks terpk, kt ni pon mcm tamtam jugak kan…Allah dh bg kt dok dlm tempat yg selesa, makan cukup, dh jage kt baik2, tapi bile dpt peluang nk explore mende yg Allah xbagi, cepat2 je kt pegi…xfikir pon ape perasaan Pencipta dan Penjaga kite yg selama ni dok ingat pasal kt…mesti Dia sedih jugak kan..n akhirnya tgk siapa yg tercedera…kite jugak…(stp yg berlaku dlm idop kne amek pengajaran kan..=))

hmm..tula teaks pk, kalo sdeh sgt pon xde maknenye sbb tamtam dh xde pon..tp still sdeh jugak…huhu..dhla dgn homesicknye lagi..aiyo lemahnye rase…tp teaks kne kuat, sbb skrg dh masuk 3rd year! sket je lg nk jd doktor ni..xkire la lemah cane pon skrg rase, teaks kne kumpul smgt baru…chaiyok!

yg masih berusahe,

*teaks*

Forgive me when i whine

Everyday kt mintak doa kat Allah kan?…macam2 kt mintak…sbb seronok kan mintak…kt mintak:

-nak jadi anak yg baik, xmnyusahkan mak ayah

-nak jadi pandai, lulus exam, spy dpt kerja, gaji bnyk

-nak kawan dgn org baik2, spy kt pon jadi baik

-nak dunia ni lebih aman, org Islam xkena seksa, sumorg jadi baik

-nak masuk syurga n dijauhkan dr azab Allah

bnyk lagi kt mintak sbnrnye…n its ok…malah its good…Allah kate in surah Almukminun:60 spy mintak la dgn Dia, n He will perkenankan (samada straight away atau later)…so xpe, doalah tiap2 hari….always pray for everyone….

tapi kan, selalu x kite ponder upon things that we already have? pernah ke kt thank Allah for the eyes He gave us..the hands, the body, the feet, the family, the education, the home and all that we have??? sumenye dr Allah kan?

dahla lupa nk thank Allah, pastu salu la pulak kt whine (merungut) when we are faced with something unpleasant…something sad….something heart-wrenching…something we dont like…salu je kt tny kenapa mende ni salu jadi kat kt? salu je persoalkan kenapa org lain xpernah kena….orang lain hidup senang je, happy je, but kt ni salu xdapat ape yg kt nak…..whine whine whine…tu kije kt….

hmm…cube kawan2 tgk lagu by Zain Bikha ni…tengok btol2:

“Today, upon a bus I saw a girl with golden hair,
And in my heart I wished that I was just as fair
When suddenly she rose to leave, I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch, but as she passed, a smile.
Oh Allah, Oh Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 legs to walk upon and the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy; met a boy who had such charm.
We talked, he seemed so happy, if I were late, it do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me, ‘Thank you, you’ve been so kind.
It’s nice to talk with folks like you. You see,’ he said, ‘I’m blind.’
Oh Allah, Oh Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 eyes to see the world and the world is mine.

Later that day on my way, I saw a boy with eyes of blue.
He watched the other children play; he did not know what to do.
I stopped a moment, then I said, ‘Why don’t you join the others, dear?’
He kept on looking straight ahead and then I knew he could not hear
Oh Allah, Oh Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 ears to hear the world and world is mine.

With legs to take me where I’d go.
With eyes to see the sunset glow.
With ears to hear what I’d know
Oh the world is mine

I stopped for a moment, just look how much I have
Everywhere, in all our lives, these are His signs

Oh Allah, Oh Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have been blessed indeed, and the world is mine
Oh Allah, Oh Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have been blessed indeed, and the world is mine”

–> So guys, shame on us for whining! shame on us yg xbersyukur for what we already have….Allah has given us so much sampai we take things for granted….as a take home message, we should make lots n lots of doa everyday n everynight (whose to say that we’re perfect kan?)…we must make doa…but we should ALSO remember not to whine (or at least minimise the amount of whining we do for a start)…and ALWAYS ALWAYS thank Allah for all that we have! moga dgn itu, hidup kt akan lebih berkat n be filled with more colours insyaAllah~

yg masih berusahe,

*teaks*

kalau saya…

tiap2 hari we reflect upon things that kdg2 kt menyesal kt buat…or kdg2 kt ditimpa satu mende yg xbes, kt selalu cuba cari mane silapnye….n bile kt ponder upon these things, we often xblh elak from using the word ‘kalau’ kan? cth2nya ni:

kalau dulu saya xkawan dengan dorg ni mesti skrg saya xmcm ni….
kalau saya xpergi belajar jauh2 mcm skrg mesti sempat jumpa nenek sebelum die meninggal..
kalau saya xmain2 n belajar betul2 dulu mesti sekarang saya dh dapat pegi luar negara…
kalau saya dapat la scholarship yg awk dpt tu, mesti saya guna utk tlg family saya…n belajar btol2…xdela nk seronok je mcm awk
kalau saya ni…..
kalau saya tu…..
n the list goes on…..

so, elok ke sbnrnye kt fikir cmni? kalau ni kalau tu….

lets first see the positive side of thinking in such a way:
- its good that we do reflect upon our mistakes…Islam pon ajar kt buat muhasabah everyday kan? so that hopefully we dont make the same mistakes….n become a better person insyaAllah in the future…
- n so some will agree

now ape pulak the negative side of thinking in such a way?
- if we say…kalau lah dulu saya…..the word ‘kalau’ tu dah tunjukkan that mende tu dah non reversible…the fact is, it already happened, and there’s nothing anyone can do to turn back time and change the fact that dah jadi dah pn….since we now live in the present, might as well try our best to fix things yg boleh so that kt xmenyesal nnt..=)
- pastu, penggunaan ‘kalau’ tu as if kt salahkan takdir that things are the way they are because of what happened in the past…whereas, semua yg brlaku kpd kt ni adalah qada’ dan qadar Allah swt….kt pasti ke ‘kalau’ dulu2 kt blaja betul2 kt dpt pegi overseas? kt pasti ke ‘kalau’ dulu2 kt baik kt xjadi mcm ni skrg? truth is: kt xtau~~~~…and all we can do is BERSANGKA BAIK dengan Allah…because die dah susun hidup kt the way it is….it is mentioned in the Quran (Albaqarah:216) ;

“It may happen that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and it may happen that you love a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows, you know not.”

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu..Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tdk mengetahui.”

So kawan2, its up to you nk tgk mcm mane….nk gune bnyk2 ‘kalau’ hari2 pun boleh…xnak pon boleh…pastu, since we live in the present so kt cuba utk baiki ape yg buleh…so that kt xmenyesal later and xperlu la gune perkataan ‘kalau’ tu lagi…heee~ i think pointnye kat cni, its good that we reflect upon our weaknesses and dosa etc but jgn sampai kt mempersoalkan takdir Allah yg sbnrnye TERBAIK utk kt…

Allah knows that which we do not

yg masih berusahe,
teaks

Turki n its wonders *_*

Who would’ve thought that I’d even think of going to Turki after going to Paris n Scotland in the same 4 weeks winter holidays huh? Xbrape nk logic kan?…huhu..ala kulli hal, it was a worthwhile decision made on my part….walaupun xfhm Turkish language, apart from the word bayan which means ladies (penting ni utk cari toilet!…hee), but the Turkish ppl were very warm n welcoming~ wic made the trip even more interesting! Huu~ so here goes…

Day 1- arrived quite late so didn’t do much…stayed in turquhouse, a hotel in eyup area…took a cable car to eyup town…wic smelled of kebab! Huhu…eyup ni yg femes is kubur abu ayub al-ansari…he died at the age of 95 fighting for Islam, masyaAllah…n he asked for his body to be buried in Turki..=)

Day 2- started the day early….wit baba n uncle from south America…took a bus to eminonu, took tram to ayasofya (a buliding that was once a church, then a mosque, n now a museum)! Went to the blue mosque, Prayed zuhr, accidentally met some kmb guys…and most importantly a 3^rd yr medical student in Istanbul, Khalil (our tour guide…kwn baba pny student)

Khalil brought us to a very beautiful garden near the blue mosque…then we went by tram + taxi to the Galata tower…can see both asia n Europe from up there….worth the walk! Ronda2 atas bukit tu smpi Istiklal road….where all the shopping took place…bro khalil said that more than 1 milllion ppl visit this road per day (according to statistics)..u can imagine how busy it was…we had a very scrumptious meal for 20 liras for 4…not bad..pastu Nasi pilau die sgt sedap!!! When asked about Turkish food, bro Khalil kate “kita suka roti…malaysia suka nasi…kita cinta masin…malaysia cinta manis…” huu… he’s been to msia so die pandei la ckp melayu skit2…walopun kdg2 lawak sket malay die…at least die cuba…huhu

Later that day, we took a taxi down to eminonu n took a ferry just to see the golden horn at night…golden horn ni river yg terletak kat tgh2 istanbul …hbs naik ferry ktorg pn blk otel…so there goes day 2

Day 3- me n baba pindah hotel kat eminonu…did some souvenir shopping…pastu g solat jumaat kat sultanahmet mosque since kat citu je ladies blh solat jgk…this is actually the 2^nd time I performed jumaah prayer…once in masjidil haram dulu..n ni yg 2^nd…huhu…the prob was that the khutbah was in Turkish language…haha! But die ade la quote a few ayats from the quran so fhm la yg tu…huhu…nways, it was interesting to chat wit a few Turkish ladies who were VERY friendly…(in a good way that is)…walopun dorg xckp English, berusaha jugak nk borak tu…serious mcm ayam ngn itik…huhu~ nways, twas a nice experience.. n masjid ni saaaangatt cantik!

Then ktorg pegi Topkapi palace…this is where ade bnyk sejarah ttg turki ni….this used to be the castle of the VERY LAST KHALIFAH ISLAM, sultan abd hamed…it was during his time that system khalifah islam jatuh n pemerintahan turki was taken over by Mustafa kamal attartuk laknatullah! Even the Turkish people suke make fun of attartuk ni n of cos sgt membenci die…isk…nways, yg lg interesting abt this palace is that it was taken over by the muslims lead by sultan Muhammad alfateh who fought against the very strong Persians…(wow! Cant believe I know all this history…dulu kalo sejarah je tido kot dlm class? Huhu~)

Nways, kisah sultan m alfateh ni sgt bess….cz he held onto the promise of Rasulullah saw that one day turki ni akan jd milik org islam…so dr kecik die ckp kat ayah die that he will take over turki someday..to him, it was a promise that he lived for! Ala kulli hal, after he won the battle n conquered turki during the uthmaniyah times, islam became stronger…he olso arranged for the important treasures of rasulullah saw n the sahabahs to be transferred to turki n is now kept in the Topkapi palace…so I got to see rasulullah saw’s swords, the 4 caliph’s swords…n many more interesting items that made me ponder upon the history of ar-rasul saw n his companions…masyaAllah…it was quite a teary scene 4 me tho…huhu

After that, we walked to the grand bazaar…(not to be missed)…we didn’t plan on buying anything pun just nk tgk2…n mmg xbeli pn ape2..huhu…mmg pasar die bess…ade bnyk mende..but it was not cheap compared to the shops we went to…plus, the sellers were quite aggressive n persistent….penat nk ckp NO…huhu! So we spent like 10 minutes je kot kat dlm tu pastu rimas…heh…so we went out to find some food…after makan, we got a phone call from khalil..he’s been Trying to reach us all day apparently but xdpt…kesian…he invited us to dinner wit him again that night…n so, there goes day 3…

Day 4- blk Sheffield =(

Ala kulli hal, I had a fabulous time in turkey n twas a meaningful trip (walopun agak pnat b4 tu baru blk paris+Scotland..huhu)….will come again insyaAllah kalo murah rezki n pjg umur~

Ok then, sori tulis pjg plak..bnyk nk cite lg tp xlarat nk tulis…nnt kalo jmp teaks cite by mouth jela k…wallahu a’lam~

*teaks*

Flowers Are Red

Salam alaik~

i came across a very nice song that i thought i’d share…..bessss!=p

tajuk die: Flowers Are Red, by Zain Bikha

blh dgr kat u-tube jgk kalo nk: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_AvXnBv8OI&feature=related

Flowers Are Red

A little boy went first day at  school
He got some crayons and he started to draw
He put colors all over the paper
For colors was what he saw
The teacher said, “What you doin’ young man?”
“I’m paintin’ flowers see”
“Well this is not the time for art young man
And anyway flowers are green and red
There’s a time for everything young man
a way it should be done
You’ve got to show concern for everyone else
For you’re not the only one”
And she said…
“Flowers are red
Green leaves are green
There’s no need to see flowers any other way
Than they way they always have been seen ”
But the little boy said…

“There are so many colors in the rainbow
So many colors in the morning sun
So many colors in the flower and I see every one”
Well the teacher said “You’re sassy
There’s a way that things should be
And you’ll paint flowers the way they are
So repeat after me…”
she said…
“Flowers are red
Green leaves are green
There’s no need to see flowers any other way
Than they way they always have been seen ”
But the little boy said again…
“There are so many colors in the rainbow
So many colors in the morning sun
So many colors in the flower and I see every one”
Well the teacher put him in a corner
She said “It’s for your own good
And you won’t come out ’til you get it right
responding like you should”
Well finally he got lonely
Frightened thoughts filled his head
And he went up to that teacher
And this is what he said
“Flowers are red, green leaves are green
There’s no need to see flowers any other way
Than the way they always have been seen”

Well time went by like it always does
he moved to another town
And the little boy went to another school
And this is what he found
The teacher there was smilin’
She said…”Painting should be fun
And there are so many colors in a flower
So let’s paint every one”
that little boy painted flowers
In neat rows of green and red
And when the teacher asked him “why”
This is what he said..
“Flowers are red, green leaves are green
There’s no need to see flowers any other way
Than the way they always have been seen.”
But there must still be a way to have our children say,
There are so many colors in the rainbow
So many colors in the morning sun
So many colors in the flower and I see every one
There are so many colors in the rainbow
So many colors in the morning sun
So many colors in the flower and I see every one

Dapat x msg die? serious xsedar mende ni happening to us dr kecik!

hopefully all of us still see the beautiful colors of the flower (literally)…NOT ONLY RED!=p

till later

~teaks~

Off relationships and feelings

text message received

Pet sis: Akak, saye sedih la…baru break up dgn bf saye..

Me: Ouh..baru ke..? berapa lame dh korg together? (dlm ati: sejak bile bdk ni ade bf…tatau pon…hmm..mmg kakak angkat yg teruk la gue nih)

I didnt really know what to say…trust me, i’m the worst when it comes to relationships n feelings nih…tatau nk nasihat ape…usually she asks me things like how to survive kat college, n things i actually know about…^sigh^

nways..smbg cite..

Pet sis: lame dh akak…2 thn dh kot…sedih sgt..(mmg bunyi nye mcm sgt2 sedih..but i really didnt know what to say..)

me: sabar la ye awk…Allah ade..Dia tau ape yg terbaik utk awk..(it felt like the best thing to say..tho i couldve said more…)

n we continued texting each other sampei la die tertdo…sian die~then mggu dpn…

Pet sis: akak, sy xleh nk jwb exam la…still sedih lg…(poor thing…aiyo, its affecting her studies pulak…aiyo…should i be worried?????)

Me: awk xleh cmni…u still have a long way to go..xkan nk give up mcm tu je? please think about ur future my dear…(risau woo…adik angkat ku ini)

ktorg text lg smpi die tdo…after a few weeks…

Pet sis: Akak, saye sedih la…sy dpt tau kwn2 saye nk fly dh..sy je yg stay kat matrix ni walupon result sy lg tggi..

Me: Ouh…xpela kan, rezki dorg…mgkn something better awaits u..

Esok tu…

Pet sis: Akak, sy sedihla…sy nye result xsampei pon 3.0 hr tu…sy xleh nk study

2 weeks later…

Pet sis: Akak, sy sedihla…ex bf sy baru meninggal…

Me: (terduduk trus)…Inalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun..die meninggal sbb ape ye?

Pet sis: Brain cancer

It took me hours to console her..she hasnt stopped crying since last night lagi..ya Allah…how i pity her so much…she’s so young, yet she’s been through so much…but i’m sure Allah loves her…n will be with her through all this..

Yg plg wat die sedih is yg mende ni dtg mengejut…she didnt know that he was unwell..so guys, please remember to update ur loved ones about ur well being..n whatever happens to u, please let them know…kesian tau

I reminded her to be thankful sbb ex die meninggal dlm bln ramadhan, n his body is buried in the holy lands of Makkah…subhanallah..

Alfatihah~